Deep breath, it’s time to revisit, Because it’s true what they say about breakups lasting more than a hot minute.
Now it’s weird to think that two years ago was the worst day of my life, But now that I’m thinking about it, I’m glad I went through all of that strife.
Maybe that sounds odd or maybe you agree, But at the end of the day if I never learned from my mistakes, then I wouldn’t be “me”.
There was a lot to learn both as individuals and as a couple, And trust me when I say that we had to get through a fair share of trouble.
Starting back up rocky was not what I wanted, Especially when I was just fine without him coming back with all that he flaunted.
He had lived a rather “adventurous” single life within those five months, So naturally I was prepared for the people that would cause our relationship bumps.
But I meant what I said last year about not putting up with shit, And yea you better believe that when it came time to show my backbone, he didn’t give me much lip.
Now I know that sounds like I might have become a dictator of our relationship, But I think we can all agree that there are some things that you just won’t let sit.
After we had time to clearly define how this relationship would be going, I’m happy to report that now we are both glowing.
But I do want to focus more about me and my personal growth, I can’t speak for him but honestly he might be the one who has grown the most.
Upon starting our new relationship I still wanted time to do my own thing, It was nothing against him, I had just sprouted an independent wing.
Quickly I found that apparently it’s weird to have a life without your boyfriend, Constantly hearing things like “you don’t act like you have another heart to tend.”
I’m sorry, but when did it become a requirement to do everything with one person?, I think most married couples can agree that too much time together can make things worsen.
What’s even more important is that I have found a love for just doing things on my own, “I don’t need no man” is more closely related to just how much a girl has grown.
Because the fact of the matter is that I don’t need Cody to feel like I can lead a fun or successful life, But I want to have him in it and maybe one day be his wife.
Gaining a relationship shouldn’t mean losing who you are, And I had to learn that lesson the hard way with a break-up that left a nasty scar.
The best thing I did for my relationship, whether it was with Cody or not, Was learning to be my own best companion – and that’s something I had to live through to be taught.
Because until I could learn to be everything for me, myself, and I, Cody stood no chance to be the one to get me by.
This past year I have learned to be better at going out without him all the time, Whether that be hitting the bars with my friends or taking myself out on my own dime.
Because before I would think that we had to do everything together, But now I understand that we can do things separately and that has made us better.
Even more importantly is that I have learned that it’s okay to stay home when he goes out, Because before I would begrudingly sit at home and pout.
I have better things to do with my time then feel compelled to be social when I’m not up for it, And I’ve learned to trust the decisions he makes even if I’m not around to see it.
Any way I slice it, it all comes down to one important factor, That I’ve learned to be more than just an extension of some eligible bachelor.
So I’m raising a glass to the dreadful breakup of June 29th 2018, What can I say, year two looks better on me – it’s my Crappy Anniversary.
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